Thursday, August 9, 2012

Tears and Frustration.

Tears are prickling my eyes, I'm biting the inside of my cheek and I want to cry with frustration. 

We've had constant battles with the Little Lion, food and allergies. It started off with him looking sickly, suffering from constant ear infections, having allergy shiners around the eyes and mild eczema, but as he's growing older it's seems to be getting worse, not better. The past couple of weeks in particular have been hell with the chronic eczema and scratching until he bleeds, the tears through the night and red welts and rashes covering his body. 

We've tried to be as careful as possible by sticking to a gluten, dairy, egg and peanut free diet but so many little things are creeping in that he's becoming sensitive to. It's a minefield. The cake I made for his birthday? Gluten, egg and dairy free... but within five minutes he was covered in red welts from the food colouring. Scratch that off the list. Reacting to his clothes? Cross the new laundry powder off the list, revert to Earth Choice and rewash everything. In the bath? Remove all our products and replace with products which are friendly to sensitive skin and contains no chemicals, which really isn't a bad thing. Read all the labels. Second guess every food. Hesitate before applying anything on him.

I'm tired. I want to cry when I see his skin ravaged with scars, welts and the texture of sandpaper. I hate that he hurts- that he wakes in tears and sobs in frustration when the itching isn't soothed. I've had to revert back to a steroid cream and Claratyne to try and keep it at bay for now, which I also hate. 



He was allergy tested when he was two years old, and we've made the decision to go back to the specialist in desperation to try and gain some more answers. It's frustrating, heartbreaking and infuriating and also a long slow painful process to eliminate all the triggers. 

I'm sorry. I try to keep this place upbeat and positive.. but tonight I've slipped and I have a few tears of frustration for my baby. If I could swap with him, I'd do it in a heartbeat. 



14 comments:

  1. I know exactly how you are feeling. You try so much and still no relief.
    I'm not sure it you have tried this but I thought it was worth mentioning to you.
    We use emu oil on my sons skin. You wipe it on and let it absorb in. It creates a great barrier and is AMAZING relief for my sons exzcema.
    Its not cheep but I dont have to use a lot either.

    I hope the doctor can give you some anwsers and you little lion is feeling better  xxx

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  2. Oh, so sorry Rhi :(
    Seeing your own children in pain or discomfort....or having to miss out on things, is definitely hartbreaking. You're doing the best you can, and hopefully one day soon, there will be relief!!
    Do you find it's worse in winter?
    My daughter's eczema is shocking at the moment and I really think it's the harsh winter air. C'mon Spring!!!!
    x

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  3. Hang in there Rhi. From the sound of it, you do a pretty good job as his mum and that's what will help him get by. It's so hard watching them suffer, I hope you can find some answers. Often children grow out of these things, my eldest had a severe egg allergy, finally at 4 he can eat it without swelling up and projectile vomiting, but he's so traumatised by eat that he wants nothing to do with it!
    Oat baths can be soothing for inflamed, itchy skin.

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  4. Hang in there, Rhi.

    Sending hope and prayers that you will find answers for the Little Lion very soon.

    SSG xxxx

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  5. The poor little thing. I really feel your pain, it must be so hard for him. I hope the specialist can give you some answers xx

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  6. Beck, thank you so much! I'll give anything a go right now, and if you found that emu oil helps then I'll try that too xx

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  7. It definitely appears to be worse in Winter. It's just so dry, and no matter how much QV I rub on him it never seems to get better. I agree, bring on Spring, and here's hoping it helps both our little cherubs! xx

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  8. Kelly, I totally know where you're coming from as Carter is so wary about food now that it's difficult to get him to try anything new. It's so tiring. Thanks so much for your support lovely, it means a lot right now xx

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  9. Thank you gorgeous, here's hoping we find some answers soon too xx

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  10. I've managed to get an appointment in October, so it's a waiting game until them! Thanks lovely xx

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  11. Oh Rhi, I am so sorry that this is happening to your little man.... you're such a wonderful mummy doing all the right things, but it sounds like it's completely out of your control. For natural, organic skincare I would HIGHLY recommend dropping my friend Haley at Peachy Clean a line to get some recommendations on what you could try for his skin. Good luck lovely. A xx

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  12. I stumbled across this post as I'm searching tonight for answers to my 4 year old son's eczema. I know exactly what you're going through-for the past year we have struggled unsuccessfully in our attempts to treat it-like you we've seen several allergist, have eliminated just about every food from his diet possible, switched detergents, lotions, tried everything out there it seems...the past few nights have been the worst being he is completely covered-I've stayed up all night with him the past 3 nights while he scratches endlessly, and then starts a coughing fit (dealing with asthma as well) and I'm praying please, God heal him-make it stop!! The tears, the frustration, the helplessness...AGH!!!! Its overwhelming. We do have another appointment the middle of Sept to see a specialist and I am hoping he will have some answers for us. Wondering how your little one is doing now-have you had any success??

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  13. Oh Heather, I am so sorry to hear that you're going through the same thing. It's just heartbreaking isn't it? Your poor little boy :(


    After changing the washing powder to Earth Choice we've noticed an improvement, and using a shampoo, body wash and eczema cream by MooGoo has been a huge help too. We've been sticking to a fairly bland diet at the moment just to try and keep everything under control, even though he reacted last week to green grapes. We have a specialist appointment too in October, and I'm hoping we'll get some more conclusive results. There's a book that my mum discovered today called Low to No Additives that looks quite good, so I might have a read of that too. I hope you get some answers soon too Heather, good luck xx

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  14. I'm so sorry Hun, I can't believe I missed this! Thanks again for the recommendation, you're wonderful xx

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